Sometimes I wonder
why do I fall
the way I do
I'm not sure
I wish I didn't
But I don't know any other way
This is how I am
And I have come to accept that
My front means nothing to me
But everything to everyone else.
I was doing well
I thought I had changed
But then I met her.
Her smile
Once again reminded me
of the purity in this world
of the good in this world
her eyes were deeper than the ocean
I felt like I was floating in.
I held back
Conditioned to doing that
and to protect myself
But she kept showing me the way
Back to finding myself
The way I used to love
wholeheartedly
fearlessly
and youthfully.
I didn't think I'd feel this way
Maybe because I didn't want to
But who am I kidding
It's only me here
I have always wanted this.
It's all I want.
To get lost with her
But what if I get hurt
I wouldn't survive that.
Do I take this chance.
I want to dive in
submerge myself
in that feeling that's called love.
Is it worth the risk ?
I wish I knew.
I want her.
